=English please!=

Okay well I've decided to blog more often in English so as to improve my very broken English.
It's the very first time I'm so stressed, frustrated and depressed because of my English.

When I was still young, I once thought my English was very good.
But hell no! My English is just so sucks!
I really should have studied harder and talked more English before coming to Australia.

Frankly, I feel so inferior when I heard other Chinese speak English fluently.
Every time when I want to speak in English, I will keep arranging the sentence in my mind to make it sounds better but at last I still did not manage to speak it out.
I can't even communicate well with other people by using English.='[
Maybe I also need a lot of self-confidence.

Can anyone please tell me how can I improve my English?
I don't want other people to look down on me because of my poor English or think that I am an idiot because I can't speak English fluently.

I am not stupid I am not stupid I am not stupid!